As every day gets closer to my move I'm finding it more and more difficult to write. It's not that I don't have anything to say, it's more like my thoughts are more jumbled and I'm finding harder and harder to put a coherent idea together into one article worth posting.
It's kind of like riding the express subway... Sitting at the window of the subway car and trying to read the advertisements and graffiti on the station walls as the train speeds through without stopping...
I really don't have a lot left to do, but I am feeling a bit overwhelmed anyway. Do some laundry, pack what I'm taking with me, give my friend from the FD the keys to the apartment to give it a thorough cleaning and then head out on Sunday. Not a lot to do.
But yet I still feel overwhelmed. Maybe it's because some things haven't gone exactly to plan. Maybe it's because I'm about to close yet another chapter on my life and start a new one and I'm a little apprehensive, but as with any book you're unsure how the next chapter will be, so I'm feeling the same way.
The book of my life is a long, sometimes boring, sometimes horrifying, sometimes amusing and often sad and bittersweet epic of one man's life and through just this short chapter I've had you, my blogger buds, my e-pals, to stay there for me. To continue to read my drivel day in, day out giving advice, critique and support in my little spot in cyberspace.
You've been there through my highs and lows like no other before. Not my family nor the wife who said in front of God and everyone she would... I have one constant left in my life and that's you, my faithful readers. You've stayed with me. You've laughed at me and with me. Cried and smiled and shook your head in bewilderment because fact is often times stranger than fiction.
I just want to say thank you now, for everything. When I log off Saturday and put my computer into storage remember it's for a finite period of time. I'll be back.
Because now, with this blog, I feel that my life has some meaning and I'm not just a voice in the dark that nobody listens to.
I've got you, Dear Readers, so I'll be back.
Copyright 2006 Thomas J Wolfenden