Thursday, May 18, 2006

Jumbled Thoughts

As every day gets closer to my move I'm finding it more and more difficult to write. It's not that I don't have anything to say, it's more like my thoughts are more jumbled and I'm finding harder and harder to put a coherent idea together into one article worth posting.
It's kind of like riding the express subway... Sitting at the window of the subway car and trying to read the advertisements and graffiti on the station walls as the train speeds through without stopping...
I really don't have a lot left to do, but I am feeling a bit overwhelmed anyway. Do some laundry, pack what I'm taking with me, give my friend from the FD the keys to the apartment to give it a thorough cleaning and then head out on Sunday. Not a lot to do.
But yet I still feel overwhelmed. Maybe it's because some things haven't gone exactly to plan. Maybe it's because I'm about to close yet another chapter on my life and start a new one and I'm a little apprehensive, but as with any book you're unsure how the next chapter will be, so I'm feeling the same way.
The book of my life is a long, sometimes boring, sometimes horrifying, sometimes amusing and often sad and bittersweet epic of one man's life and through just this short chapter I've had you, my blogger buds, my e-pals, to stay there for me. To continue to read my drivel day in, day out giving advice, critique and support in my little spot in cyberspace.
You've been there through my highs and lows like no other before. Not my family nor the wife who said in front of God and everyone she would... I have one constant left in my life and that's you, my faithful readers. You've stayed with me. You've laughed at me and with me. Cried and smiled and shook your head in bewilderment because fact is often times stranger than fiction.
I just want to say thank you now, for everything. When I log off Saturday and put my computer into storage remember it's for a finite period of time. I'll be back.
Because now, with this blog, I feel that my life has some meaning and I'm not just a voice in the dark that nobody listens to.
I've got you, Dear Readers, so I'll be back.
Copyright 2006 Thomas J Wolfenden

19 comments:

Katie said...

I know how you fell about moving..it sucks but it does get better..good luck..and we all will be hear when you get back...

Okie said...

Remember, RT. You don't have to have your own computer to be a blogger. Go to the library!

I'll look forward to your return.

Pedro the Ignorant said...

The Diggers are with you Tom, old mate.

There wil always be a spare bed and a cool one in the fridge for you all across Oz.

Good luck on the railroad and all things that go with it.

Don't forget; "Never volunteer!"

Redneck Babydoll said...

Awwww, I'll miss you rockin' my socks everyday!!!!:)
Anyway, may you have a safe trip, an easy move, and a quick adjustment....
We'll be waitin' for ya.

<3, Jess

Lisa said...

I'll be thinking of you....

Red said...

Best wishes and I look forward to your return...

Cheryl said...

You better be! Good luck!

Sherri said...

Looking forward to your return. :)

Courtney said...

You'll be missed, but we look forward to hearing from you soon :)
Good luck with everything and we'll be thinking about you and praying for you.

cmk said...

Always here for you, RT--we'll be waiting for your return!

Good thoughts go out to you...

Kat_womanx2 said...

Enjoyed having lunch with you today...It was good to see you so excited about things happening in your life...you know we will all be here when you get back online, and in the meantime...you know how to get in touch with me. Best of luck in evrything you do !!!

Kat_womanx2 said...

That was "everything"...LOL

tsduff said...

Oh man, the tears are welling up at your words...

I really don't want you to log off on Saturday - will still be flying over (as the crow flies) to your place to see if you are back. I will just plan on seeing you back before too long, telling us all about your new life, great train stories, and oh yeah, photo fridays! Damn - the very best of luck to you Tom.

Ranger Tom said...

Katie: It's good to see you back writing yourself.

Okie: I've already mapped out the nearest library. Now all I have to see if their hours mesh with my new work schedule

Pedro: You guys have always been there for me too and I'll be back over at Diggers soon also... And as I recall, the last time I volunteered for anything smallish chocolate-colored people speaking Spanish were desperately trying to kill me... So don't worry, I'm not volunteering for anything much these days.

RNBD: I'm still rockin' the old socks, eh? I just wish I knew exactly what I was doing so I could put it to use here...

Lisa: Same here... I'll be missing reading about The Bun...

Red: I'll miss your political insights. I won't be long.

Cheryl: I think my luck has finally turned...

Sherri: I would say "I Shall Return!" But that's the same thing Macarthur said and it took him damn near four years...

Courtney: Thanks for the prayers!

Cmk: I won't be too long

Kat: It was a nice afternoon, wasn't it? And don't worry, I'll be in touch. We'll do it again soon... Maybe this time we won't get such a flighty server...But she was amusing. And go figure, absolutely no dental mishaps!

TsDuff: Oh, jeese... Don't cry! I waved to an airliner flying over tonight for you.

The Ramblin Hillbilly said...
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The Ramblin Hillbilly said...

Bit of an emotional moment there RT? I just want you to know that I am glad to have been able to meet you and that your unique view on life has given me new insight into many different things in life. If you ever need anything you know where I'm at.

Ranger Tom said...

Bill: I've got to stay in touch. You've got my shit!

Carolyn said...

Yep, I know those feelings all too well! My place here is looking really good now with all the blooms, and I'm moving first of June, lol! I think this is normal to feel those chapters closing, but anticipating what lies ahead :)

phlegmfatale said...

I know it's tough - it's a big step you're taking. Hang in there and the rewards will be sweet. Best wishes for your move!